many mundane moments

aaaaannnnnd there it is...

the anger.

I think I've moved beyond the denial stage. Just what am I angry at? I'm not sure, but it first hit Wednesday night when I started having a panic attack about the soon to be sudden stop in regular income. Angry that he quit his job? No, because we've been discussing it for months. I think it's tied to his timing and feeling out of control. In our discussions over the past few months, I've asked him to wait until the end of the year if he didn't have something permanent to take its place. Our car will be paid off, as will some other debts and there won't be nearly so much to panic about.

Also, at my job there's an opportunity three times each year to be considered for full-time status. I would have had to work about twice as much, but it comes with medical benefits. The deadline for the next period (Sept-Dec) was June 21. I asked him at least 5 times in those first few weeks of June if would be quitting his job before then and if I should change my status. He said no. I didn't apply. Now, one month later he's quit his job, we will have to have independent medical insurance and we still have 5 months to go on our car.

I'm angry.

posted by Valarie @ 10:44 PM